i never learned my lesson.
History have been repeating itself over and over ...
why do i have to always find myself in this situation...
i tried to love but always have been hurt, not twice not trice but more ...

i am stupid to be so vulnerable and have allowed people to enjoy in my pains...
i hate it but i just dont know where and how to stop it...
i dont want this feeling, but always stuck with this kind...

is it me? am i at fault? is it wrong to love ?
or maybe i dont know how to anymore...

are there answers for these?
are there perfect reasons why these happens?
is it wrong to love?
or i have i loved too much?

when you feel rejected, what do u do?
do you close your door and cry your heart out?
go out , drink and enjoy?
think, re think until you can no longer comprehend anything?

is this a phase?
or i just have lost the right map to the road?

shall i seek freedom?
or remain a prisoner of this situation?

and when loving a person is easy but being loved seems hard, is it better to simply stop?

i really just want to let go... but i dont know how...and where to begin.